It’s been a while since I dated someone. This morning, I saw a couple working out at the gym at 6 a.m. They looked so cute together. It distracted me a bit since I’ve been thinking about that kind of relationship all the time, though I’ve never actually had one. Lately, I’ve been so content by myself, but I guess I can’t just forget about love altogether. So how about go on a self date with myself?

Writing, Focus, and My Weekly Routine

I’ve decided to write a weekly review every week — mostly random thoughts, but mainly focused on my three trinities to live a better life. This year, I even added one “business trinity,” but that one hasn’t gone very far yet. My blog doesn’t get many views, but I think documenting my thoughts is still meaningful, at least to myself.

I also realized I should probably focus on one thing each week — maybe one peak or one low moment — and really brood on it, rather than trying to cover everything that happened.

My Rainy Self Date

On a rainy Wednesday afternoon, I took myself out on a self date. I wore my cute black dress — the one I last wore last winter. It felt nice to dress up again. Then I bought a book and took a slow, chill little walk to the cinema, about 2 km away.

I forgot to bring my transparent umbrella — the only souvenir I got for myself from my last Japan trip. It happens all the time: you picture yourself beautifully with that umbrella in the rain, only to realize you left it upstairs. Luckily, it wasn’t raining much, just a little drizzle now and then, so I went without it.

Watching Alone, Feeling Enough

At the cinema, I think I was the only one who actually bought a ticket. Two other guys seemed to stay after their first movie, but I didn’t mind — nobody bothered me. I sat in the middle, resting my legs on the chair in front, feeling so comfy. It’s been so long. I forgot when was the last time I went to a movie alone. I used to do that a lot last year when business wasn’t that busy.

Why did I stop doing that? Maybe because business went from “not too busy” to… “sucks”? (LMAO Just kidding.)

I think the real reason is: first, not so many good movies lately; and second, I started waking up at 5:30 a.m., so afternoons always feel short. I usually start my afternoon around 2 p.m. and want to finish work before 5. That only leaves time for one movie, but I often have other things to do.

The movie I watched last week was One Battle After Another by Leonardo DiCaprio. I like the actor, but the movie itself… I don’t know, not that amazing. Maybe I was expecting too much?

The Walk Home and What I Learned

After the movie, I walked home, taking a different route — it already felt refreshing. I’ve been on my bike too much wherever I go. Walking alone on a peaceful road felt like an ideal date scene.

Did I wish to share that self date with someone else? No, not really. I’ve grown too comfortable with my own company. But for love — I’m still loving it. Just the kind that makes me feel peaceful and secure. No drama.

Will I meet someone? I don’t know. But we’ll see, right?