Two Weeks of Rain and the Weight of Stillness

Unstopped raining for weeks. Felt so unmotivated, but somehow life goes on — with or without you trying to live it, better or worse.

This phase felt like another layer of burnout recovery, where even doing nothing can feel like a struggle. I promised myself to do one solo trip each season, and I was really looking forward to this one. Our last, our away Hash — to the beachside. Though more incidents happened than I expected, overall, that was a great getaway from where I am every day.

Before and After the Beach: Rest, Expectation, and Exhaustion

Before the trip, I let myself idle away for days, stacking up all these expectations of what I would do once I reached the beach. After it, I was just too tired. I slept like two days straight. Total crash. That, too, was part of burnout recovery, I guess — when even rest feels like you’re still not doing it right.

Sometimes I question myself: am I being too kind to myself? I just let myself be. But if I’m not kind to myself, then who else will be?

Social Fatigue and the Value of Not Fitting In

I don’t know when I started hating most social events. Being surrounded by people often feels like a waste of time. Endless talking — girls, boys, on and on — and none of it lands. It all sounds like noise to me.

Still, I make myself go out sometimes. Just to observe. That’s what I tell myself. When I was reading by the beach, I overheard some girls talking randomly — about everything and nothing. And in that moment, I felt blessed, because I was having an internal dialogue that felt so much deeper, with my book — way more interesting.

You might feel uncomfortable when you start doing something different from the group. That’s exactly when — and why — you should. You don’t have to join conversations you don’t care about just to fit in. That’s a huge waste of your own time and energy. Don’t do that. It doesn’t help your burnout recovery — it just numbs you further.

Tracking the Curve: Lows, Pillars, and Trying Again

Life was okay. But like every week, there were days where I felt low. And every day, hours that felt off. Life is just one big up-and-down curve. Acknowledge your emotions. Make peace with them. It’s important. I’m still learning to make peace with myself.

I tried to review my weeks through three pillars: books, miles, and matters of the heart. Those are my self-set checkpoints. A way to organize a chaotic life and try to leave each day behind in the best possible way.

Reading daily always reignites something in me. I’m growing more attached to that habit.

Rain, Running, and Resetting Goals

Because of the constant rain, I missed a 10KM training last Tuesday. I checked back on my marathon plan for August, made some revisions, and reset my PB goals. Reminded myself not to lose sight of why I started.
In burnout recovery, goal clarity can be everything. You need that compass.

I think I’ll try running in the mornings. Maybe it can help my early wake-up challenge, which I’ve failed a bit lately. Waking up early every day sounds simple, but people get lazy — and I’m one of them sometimes.

When Work Stalls and Doubt Creeps In

Work wasn’t progressing much either. And I think that’s what stressed me out the most. When you’re on your own, there’s no one to blame but yourself. So you doubt. But self-doubt never helps. It just tears everything down.

I see it, and I am trying to walk through it. It’s never easy. Especially not during burnout recovery, when everything feels ten times heavier. Give yourself some more time I guess.

Matters of the Heart: You Can Always Recover

When life feels like pressure from every angle, it’s easy to lose touch with what truly matters to your heart. We know life is all about experience. Be honest with yourself, and you’ll be okay.

I know I need to work more on the work that matters to the heart. Maybe your business isn’t going well either. Or something else is weighing you down. But as long as you know what you should do each day, and choose to do something that inspires you, or just makes you smile — Eventually, you’ll figure things out.

You always do.

Just try not to worry too much. PEACE!

See You Next Week

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