I missed this week’s reading event, but I didn’t skip reading that day. It turned out to be a great experience, and I’m so glad Nina and I could do our own separate Secret Fallina Book Club reading event. I’m fortunate to be doing this with a trustworthy friend. So far, we’ve managed to have one reading event every week, and Nina always looks so happy in those reading pictures.

The Theme of Motherhood

This week’s topic was motherhood, inspired by Catherine’s upcoming pregnancy in Wuthering Heights. Nina had already spoiled that Catherine and Linton are about to have a baby in the upcoming chapters. I’m still on chapter 12 and haven’t made much progress last week. However, with the movie adaptation coming soon, I feel the pressure to catch up!

Motherhood is a concept I’m still unfamiliar with, as I’m not a mother yet. There are many moments in my life when I question whether I’ll ever become someone’s mom. I used to believe that not having children would be the greatest regret of my life. Despite the hormonal pressure, there are times when I really want to see what I would be like as a mother.

Reflections on Motherhood and Identity

Would I do a better job than my mom? Or would I finally come to appreciate the immense effort she put into bringing me into this world? There have been bad days when I’ve questioned my own existence, blaming my mom for bringing me into this cruel and difficult world. But over time, those bad days have become less frequent, and good days have appeared more often, bringing beauty and meaning into my life.

Being born the way I am has been a blessing, and if one day I have the privilege of becoming a mother, I hope my children feel the same way. As for Catherine and Linton’s child in Wuthering Heights, I can’t help but wonder if their child will have a happy life. As marriages progress, having children often seems inevitable. Unfortunately, some couples seem to have children only to “fix” a failing marriage, which I don’t think is fair to the child.

Catherine’s Pregnancy and the Question of Love

In Wuthering Heights, Catherine, who was so obsessed with Heathcliff, is now going to have Linton’s child. I can’t help but wonder how she feels about the pregnancy. Personally, I’m relieved not to be in her position, with all the suffering she may have endured. Catherine is not the type of woman I want to become. I do feel sorry for her, but even if she had married Heathcliff and had his child, I don’t think they would have been happy either.

Love is a lifelong journey that requires both partners to build something meaningful together, day by day. This is likely much harder than being single and creating a fulfilling life independently.

Marriage and Motherhood: A Personal Question

So, getting back to last week’s topic—is it wise to marry too soon? I honestly don’t have the answer. Many of us hesitate to marry, and as a result, we might never marry at all. Would we regret not marrying? Life is complicated. Marriage and motherhood are just two battles we face on our journey, and ultimately, death ends it all.

Do you have children yet? What does it feel like to be a parent? I’d love to hear your thoughts. Hope to read with you soon at the Secret Fallina Bookclub!