Ran my 20 km on Sunday without really tiring myself out. I remembered the first time I ran my half-marathon. My hands were shacking and my feet were tore out for a couple of days. Now it felt more like routine training, and I need to run another 25 km and 35 km before the racing day in January 2025. Each time I break through something, I see a stronger and better me with more possibilities ahead.

I. Books and Experiences are Great Ways of Reading

I didn’t read much for the past week. I did get some books from Hong Kong, and the rainy weather was supposed to be a great chance to read more, but I didn’t. I think on the one hand I spent most of my spare time training; that’s where I feel exhausted afterwards. I checked my reading list the other day.

For the “Books” pillar on my New Year Resolution 2024, the whole point was to finish 50 books in a year. I’m now on my 25th one. But still, there is one more month left for this year. I know I should have read more regularly than from one time to another longer period of time.

While I was traveling out in April and May, I thought I would read more, but unexpectedly I spent lots of time exploring and fell in lone. Though nothing turned out promising. Still, I have no regrets. All I need to improve on is to read every day. Nothing big, but keep the consistency. I’m fully confident that I can do better and better each day, especially after I completed my 75 Hard Challenge.

I can do whatever I set my mind to. But still, I’m not an ambitious type. I’d love to enjoy my bed and a bit of love on a rainy day. So I don’t blame myself for not living up to my “Book” pillar yet. Anyhow, living and experiencing a life is another type of reading. Never become too rigid; life needs flexibility. I never want to be too hard to change. I enjoy being free of becoming everything. 

II. Now a Way Too Active Type, Love It!

As I mentioned earlier, my “Miles” Pillar went more than great. Actually, while I set the rules for myself in February. All I want for myself is to move around more to feel happy more. Now you see, I workout every day, even if it’s raining or really cold. So proud of myself. And I’m happy 80% of the time when I’m out running, cycling, or taking selfies in the gym. The other 20% are most often moody because of my period or mysterious hormone changes in my body that I can’t really control, so I allow them to be. Coexisting with a bad mood is crucial for living a true and ground-feeling life. All those on social media sharing only happy posts are fake. Don’t worry yourself too much when you feel unmotivated; set a thing or two each day to complete. then do it anyway. You’ll be good. 

III. Love is Still the Matter of My Heart

My drum teacher dumped the class on me last week. I did go to practice but thought I made less progress while the teacher was there helping. I get it when a new habit or skill is forming. It’s natural and easy to feel unconfident to actually make it, and then from time to time you question yourself if it’s necessary to continue doing it. It’s quite like love in anyone or anything. When we feel not sure about the result, we don’t want the struggle in all. But we all know that. If you don’t put effort into building, the result is for sure nothing. I can see lots of people nowadays giving up on trying. They don’t try new things. They don’t love like a brave kid. To play safe is a cowardly act. Don’t do that. If there is nothing you can be crazy for. That’s boring!

To conclude, I’ve been living my life in a great way. I can die any moment without regret. But one thing I still feel missing is to have someone to love and build something amazing together. I feel it’s coming someday. I’m not really anxious about that much. Good things take time to grow. I love myself. Hope you do too.